Silly thoughts.

Confirmations of thoughts.

Images of if's came running through.

Assurance.

I need to sleep. And stop thinking.

Whats you?

http://www.tummyfluff.co.uk/fun/humour/Personal.htm

Dont ask me whats mine.

If you want to know, ask me here & I'll tell you.

Shucks

Since I've started working, I have been too tired after work to talk or to have a decent conversation with mum and dad.

Daily words : Good night , good morning, I'm home, I'm hungry, etc.

Sad dont you think?

All I want to do after work is just spend time with myself, lappy and the other fella. I guess work has been eating me up a lot since I started. I shut myself out from everything else. Although I am feeling more comfortable with what I do, I really don't know if I am gonna survive.

Heck the stupid ego that I 'like' this job and I'm ok. I AM NOT!

I should stop forcing myself. I should stop feeling scared. I should stop finding excuses.

I need to listen to what my heart wants and say it out loud.

If I survive, then I survive. If I dont, then its just an experience I was threw into and I should get up and continue walking. Its just not my thing after all? The experience has been good but I was not at my best. Bleh. Failure is part of life ? But its hard to accept and face it don't you think? No one to blame but myself.

Dad makes me feel better everytime.

Mum makes me feel all warm inside.

Status check: Life sucks at the moment.

Announcement : I might /choose to be unemployed in 1 week. A new beginning? Lets hope for the best :)

" Pemikiran yang terpendam terlalu lama yang tidak diluahkan akan menjadi racun yang bakal membahayakan kesihatan anda and orang di sekeliling "

Lets have random talks in person and laugh :)

Enough of bitching and enjoy life already :)

Magnetic phone

Ugh, I should get a new handphone really soon. My current hp attract staples . ZOMG!

I didnt know that until last Friday when we had some vote thingi at work.

It was time to nominate the new committee board. It felt so like high school where the names of the nominees were written on the board and everyone just vote. The difference? They did not introduce the nominees in person. Swt. How I voted? Well, when there's guys nominees in a category, I vote for them to enrich the communication of the committee board XD

Everyone just wanted the voting to end asap so that we can eat! After the last category finished, everyone left fast and headed to where the food is. Swt. I was pretty sure that the current committee board wanted to introduce the newly elected committee board BUT. . . haiz. I guess stomach overrules everything else. Haha.

I asked one of the colleagues to help me keep my phone as I didnt have enough hands to take the food. As she pass it back to me, I noticed theres staple on the speaker 0_0

Thinking maybe the staple was just sticking there and was not magnetised by my phone , I decided to do an experiement. Lay the staple on the table and then put my speaker near it, the staple actually sticks to my hp speaker!! OMG!!

Phone phone, I need a new one like nowww XD

Will a phone fall from the sky ? Hopes are rather low dont you think. Sigh.

Whining and excuses

Its about time I need to get my head straight about this job.

I was randomly selected by them through JobStreet. I accepted the job though it was not my cup of tea. Logistic in an interesting field. Lots of new things to learn everyday but I dont seem to be absorbing them. Somehow I am shutting myself out from learning. The reason? My brain cant give me an answer. Maybe because I'm not interested? Maybe because I dont really care what happens? Maybe because I'm still at studying phase & not taking my job as serious I should be but the phase should be over it by now, it has been 5 months since my last exam. Hmmm . .

It has been 4 months - I gave an impression that I don't seem to be enthusiastic about my work through the feedback. Ugh. Also, my performance has been going up and down like a coaster ride. To the boss, my performance is like the weather. The sun shines and then rain and then the sun shines again. In conclusion, inconsistency which is something I have to work on.

So whats next?

• Find my passion really quick?
• Strive for excellence in what I do?
• To work on my pro-activeness. Ugh. Make time to be proactive no matter how busy I am :/
• Stop making excuses.
• Start caring for what I do.

Will I make it?

I hope I am not doing this job for the sake of filling up my time. *ask self*

I hope I can prove myself wrong before its too late.

People pay for your ability. Do what more than what you're supposed to.

*Note to self : A new week is starting. Full speed ahead? I better be. Bleh.

Phail at F

Hahaha, I cant believe this. I have been driving for the past 7 years yet I fail this driving test below. I was graded F! I had only 28% correct like what the . . . What la! So embarassing. I shall sulk and take afternoon nap cos I'm 'depressed'! :P

*excuses to nap*

Nites world!

Created by Auto Insurance

Need you Now

My new favourite emo song - best time to listen to it in a peaceful night while watching the sky so clear with some stars and the moon shining while driving.

Need You Now lyrics found at elyricsworld.com

Whale Shark

So damn big whale shark! Look at how small we will be if we were next to it! Eeeek! I dont understand how some people / divers can be soooo brave and excited to swim next to it!

I would be too scareddd!! What if it decides to eat me??!! @___________@

I didnt know whale shark was sooo big and pweetyyyy!! I wander how big a baby whale shark is though. Will I die if it nibbles on me?

[I have been randomly updating stuff, I knoww. Bear with me la k :P]

Purrrr

Screamsss : " Tee heeeeeeeeeeeeee! Soo cuteeeeeeeeee~!! "

*stealed photo from Tan's*

I want a pet and try talking to it and take adorable pictures of it all day long!

And sing "Soft kitty, warm kitty , little ball of fur. Happy kitty , sleepy kitty, purr purr purr" (if its a cat) and hug it to sleep xD

Sardin

One of my unfavourite food in the world is sardin. (I dont know what other food I dont like though)

Yes, sardin in the tin or any form of sardin. Yuck! Me no like! Dont ask me the reason, I just didnt like it since I was small. I remembered taking a bite of sardin and I told myself that sardin is banned from my food list xD

Guess what. I had a mouthful of sardin for lunch today and I actually like it. Hahaha. I was glomping it down the throat & wanted more. So much for banning sardin. More choices of fooood for me to eat now xD

Well , mum wasnt feeling well so she cooked what she could and went to rest. You should have seen my face expression when I knew there was only sardin, baked beans & fried onion-egg for lunch -.-

The eggy finished & I was left with baked beans & sardin -.-

I ate the baked beans & the onions that came with the sardin for some time & left the sardin unattended *nomnomnom* *stares at the sardin-hmmmm*

I gave it a thought and decided to just have alil tiny bitsy piece of sardin & prayed it wouldnt taste too bad. BUT it was rather yummy. Wheee.

from Safa.TV

Welcome to my food-list sardin! =)

*ponders*

Oh, how I miss these people and the environment and their energy .

PS: I sorta decided already. Its time to let go of my only AIESEC experience left - bye bye Muski. Gonna miss you :(

Next to think about : Now, how am I gonna tell the boss about this. Hmmmmm . . .