It's my emo day ... yeay!!

Maybe it's just me. 

Time to stop. 

I'm less cheerful since then.

Less friendly. More anti social pretty badly.  

Less motivated. 

Less hyper aka energyless. 

No sharing.

Less caring. 

Not so nice. 

Worst tolerance. 

Slept more. 

Meaner. 

Think more about myself. Least sacrifice. 

Maybe I just want to play safe. Don't want that to repeat. Again.

Changes is good. We grow from changes. 

But I think I like my previous self better. At least when I see people smile, it brightens my day no matter how bad my day was. Now smile doesn't work anymore as if I'm immune to them. 

I need something. That makes me smile unconditionally. I'm on a great hunt to find it. Whatever 'it' is. Maybe it shall be my 2009 mission. 

Cakey =))

It was an exciting day when cous' bought us cakes to indulge on.

 

Oh! Heaven! 

This post is specially for Tian cos' he missed the eating part. Tian u jealous?? We ate your part since u won't be bak b4 the cake taste bad. Lol. *has to hide when he's back*

Quoting Ling: Indulgence is one of the 7 sins. 

We had 3 different flavor. Err, I don't know the name la. I like the 1st best. The choc is so moist.Mmmm... 2nd one tasted like coffee / cappucino, nothing special. 

The 3rd one, choc was really thick. But it was too much for me with the 3rd one. *burp*   I didn't really enjoy it that much. The excitement just went *poof*. 

T-H-E-N Uncle Lim stopped by. Guess what? He brought half cheese cake. From? Secret Recipe. OMG! Again? I actually rejected sweet food. Sort of. But I ate it anyway b'cos dad was making all de MMmmmm sound in the kitchen. Dad, ur fault!! I love this most. CHEESE!! 

History is made. For once, I actually had enough of sweet food! 

Why cant the cake come once every 2 days? Huhu. Too much to handle in 1 day. Inilah akibatnya tamak makan. Sigh. 

I think Tian would laugh at this post cos we were too greedy and say Padan Muka! to me. 

Frustation

It's frustating when u find out more about a person's lies although you know that she is a liar. AND it's proof to a lie that you know few months back. Yeay! Great! Maybe I shouldn't have check my emails. Sigh. 

Maybe it's childish for you but I told her about my findings about the lie to her. Why I did that? To let her know that her lie got busted! And hinting to her to lie better next time. 

Telling her doesnt make any difference anyway. People like her won't feel anything. It's a norm for her to lie. SOO?? No big deal la. 

Moral of the story: Don't lie to me. If I find out, I'll never forget it. Sorry but it's just me. I don't tolerate lies. Even if you want to, lie properly and don't let me find out. Best way to hurt me? Lie to me and then let me find out! Expect a bye bye to my trust to you then. 

I'm awake at dis hour.. wahh !!

They always say u earn something, u lose something

Well I say u enjoy something, u sacrifice something. 

A piece of this 

grows a big red pimple on my face the next day. Wah! I thought it might be a coincidence so I tried eating few days later. more excuses to eat more And again, another oglee pimple grows. Can't I enjoy without facing the consequences? Sigh. I dont like pimples. B'cos my hand will be gatal itchy; pinch it causing it to bleed. Then leaving a scar. Enough la! 

Speaking of which, my best friend came attacking me. Not period pain la. Eeekk! My stumach is so windy. Pain! I hate enduring pain. Damm. It's gonna last me for another 5 days. Go away pain! Go away! I ate on time wor. too much in fact. My flabby tummy is showinggg. ARRrr I still don't understand how it happened. Too much food? Cant be. In denial.

And I hate my frinch. It's trying to be cute by covering and poking my eyes all the time to catch my attention. Grr! Pick-a-boo! Now u see me, now u don't. Annoying! Since it's too short, I cant blow it away into place using my mouth. Grr!! 

Imagine my face instead. Black hair. Less bushier hair. Half the frinch. And more annoyed face. 

The Horror of Cooking ~

Tick tock tick tock. Time passes really quick. 2 months before I will be on my own. To cook. Huhu. I so dont look forward for the day to come. No talent + careless amateur cooking edible food wor... 

Frying fish is the easiest after many observations. Lol. 

Apply salt all over the fish. Inside also can for more flavoring. Do the same thing if u are adding curry powder also. Then heat up the oil. When it's hot enough, toss the fish into the boiling oil. And then scream WAH /  NO and run as fast as you can from the wok!  This is to avoid boiling oil from spitting on you. 

Huhu. It's not fun getting spit by boiling oil. Long ago, oil spit on me before and I dare not go near the kitchen when boiling oil is involved. I was lucky it didnt turn out to be a scar/after-effect like mum's. Got scared even more when mum show her after-effect of oil spitting. 

Anyway u just need to change sides of the fish from time to time. And to know if the fish is ready to cook? Well, just check if the eyes are popped out. The fish's eyes aite? 

Sounds easy right? I like every part except tossing the fish into the boiling oil. Oil spitting spoils all the fun! =((

Btw I dont literally mean TOSS your fish. If you toss, of course oil will spit at you. I salute people who cooks! I'm stil phobic over oil-spitting. huhu

Need to learn about soup soon. I love soup. But it's soup only according to mum. You just throw whatever you want and let it boil. Add pepper / ketchup / Knorr chicken cube or whatever u feel like. And tada! 

Porridge and 'tong shui' aka manisan also. 

Can I make it on time? 

Will I give up half-way? 

Only time will tell =P 

Look look. Bumped into this group of performers on Xmas nite. They are playing the harmonica. Different sizes and lengths le. I remembered having a harmonica toy when I was small. I was either spitting / drool all over it. Blek ~And it still didnt produce any music except saliva. Eeek!  Disgusting le when I think back. 

Their performance was awesome for me. Hehe. The 2nd guy from the right quite cute. Lol. He's not the reason I like their performance laaaaaaa... XP

The love of a son to his father

Son was the only one to study til form5 among his siblings. Orang dulu-dulu kalau boleh study sampai form5 memang teramat bagus dan lucky dah. Son was a top student. But son couldn't further his studies due to financial problem. The reality. Obstacles to overcome. Dream dies sometimes not because by choice but because of the reality. M-O-N-E-Y. 

Son work really hard to get what he has now. He has been working all his life (since 18) to provide the best for his family. Especially his kids' education. Son doesn't want history to repeat. He know what it's like. The importance of education. The generation nowadays don't appreciate the luxury of education we have and most of us complains about the stress we encounter and never thought that it was hard back then to even study in high school and primary school.  

One day, Father left a plot of land to his son. Big enough to build a house. That was the only thing left when Father died. The only memory. Son did what he could to maintain the memory. Although it meant spending. Big ouch in his pocket! And the things done by son seem redundant to son's family. Sometimes alil riduculous but Son still do it anyway. 

Son has never forget his dad since Father's left. Son treasured the only memory a lot. It's really impressive, really. I wander if I could ever do that.  

~~~...~~~...~~~...~~~...

Above was the story of dad and ah gong (grandfather). 

Dad has done alot. As I grow old, my wish has always been to provide a comfort life to both dad and mum. Dad has sacrifised a lot way too long and it's time for him to have a break. It's heart-breaking knowing dad has to extend. I wish I could contribute back to the family but it's not time yet. Another year to go before I work. Gah! I cant wait! 

Ah gong, I miss you. 

Doughnuts is luxury!

It's really hard to find me awake past 1 am. My eye would usually do it's normal thing... closes away bit by bit... even though with tons of work to finish... 

I had Big Apple Donuts today.. Yeay! 

What? Food is a blessing. And the reason why I'm growing vertically more and more.

I had 'Golden Cheese' (top) and Mocha (fill in the blank yourself b'cos I forgotten) . I like 'Golden Cheese' cos it's cheesy & luv the cream/watever u call it on it... Lol . Mocha 'somting' was yummy also and it has whipcream in it. Mmmmm.... finger licking good ...  

Tian bought this two. He cant remember the name. So do I. But the 1st doughtnut has nuts cream in it. Mmmmm.... 

And I bought sandals for myself too. Finally. Bought something for myself besides food. But no picture of it though. NO to slippery slippers and selipar jamban anymore. YES! Unless I am overly ganas and break it real soon. Sigh. Dad would say I have 'kaki lembu' at this point. 

I have panda eyes! Gah! How? It's the end of the world....!!  I sleep like pig ... I mean 8 hours a day of sleep but my eye bags are still there clinging like Uhu glue. They look like they'll be hanging around for a long time. NOOO!! I wouldnt have noticed them if I weren't camwhoring few days ago. Sigh. Maybe I should evolve into a panda next year. Guinea fish with hairy butt; chanchan claimed me to be is boring already. 

Public transports

This week was a lot of car rides for me. Either a driver or a partner in crime with bro. From computer related to running errands to shopping. Especially in the day. Alil of sunshine is good right? 

One noon, I got a message that I need to do something really really soon. Rush rush rush!! I am bad with directions when I drive so I rather take the public transport to get myeslf there instead of getting lost in midst of KL. Somewhere. No thanks.

It's been a L-O-N-G time since I use it. Well there's some upgrade in Subang KTM. There's lift now. AND it works. Hoho. Bro decided to give it a try. Weee ~ Bcos we were too lazy to walk up the stairs. I was alil reluctant to give it a try... I don't want to be stuck in a lift. But de lift worked fine. Ubi, u miss it ler.  

And it was my 1st time on a Star LRT. 

And my __th time on Putra LRT but it's been really long since I sat on one. It looked really cool to me.

This was when me and bro have to walk miles away from Star to KTM at Bandaraya station. We have to use a bridge.... walaooo ~!!

Anyway I was hunting this place.

I feel like some sort of stalker trying to take the photo in their office. I was doing it fishy-ly so tat I dont look so sampat 

Before I left, the MSL fella ask me if I'm a Malaysian. WHAT THE?? Maybe I should have ask where does he tink I'm from? China? Japan? Korea? Vietnam? .................... *speechless* Dont I look Malaysian enough? 

s - skirt

I am on a search for a skirt or maybe more. Bcos I'm bored of jeans. Bleh~ I cant fit into them anymore. Oh! The horror!  

Something simple yet nice. Not too mini no way to exposing fat thighs and not too long. I don't like flowery ones or too frilly ones. Jeans material would be ideal. 

With sales going on, hope I could get one in time. Skirt skirt... where are thou? 

Have been on a hunting mode. But nothing caught my eye. Well, there was one or two but it was way over my budget. Huhu. 

" Dear Santa, I have been a good girl this year. 

Can I have a skirt or two? " 

I miss Penang

As much as I love home with the comfort of lazying around, the enjoyment of home-cooked food at home, the tv hogging session again, the extra to annoy bug care for my bros, and the list goes on; I somehow miss Penang. The familiar faces I see, the usual air I breath, the yummy food, waking up for classes, the GTs, the siao people(s), my room, .... 

I can't believe it will be my last semester in USM and here I am , rotting. In my house. Lol. Although I have a choice to head back to USM, I made a choice to spend more time with my family for many personal reasons. Mainly is because I haven't been spending enough time with them. 

Anyway, just a slight announcement to make here. Have been feeling bad for not updating friends who have been closer to me about this. 

*Note: Sorry Miss Kan. I didn't mean it.*hugz* I din't tell alot of people lo actually. My bad =((

Mike testing >>>> 

*testing testing* 

* testing 1 2 3* 

I have finally receive my confirmation letter to GSO last week.. Woot ~ Excited and happy but alil pissed towards some people, which is the tadika and nenek. I've send in my application for accomodation few days ago, waiting for GSO to reply me. Lalala ~ This evening, just book air tix to Frankfurt also. Yeay!! With great thanks to my 2 wonderful peeps. HC virus and Jun!*throws confetti* Yes Yes, I owe both of u dinner. But not too expensive though, nanti pocket aku berlubang besar.  *hint hint*

Without this 2 peeps, I would have been travelling up and down KL-Pg alot and end up staying in Penang rotting in my room..... for weeks? You guys are truly great! Cant wait to spend the whole 5 months with you two in Nurnberg. Hehehe. *chuckles evil-ly* Thank you so so much for the constant info about everything. And sorry that I didn't do much for this. As I have other things to commit to. Gomme ~ !! Kisses and hugs when I see you two soon k? 

The day I'll be stepping to KLIA and fly-fly is on ... 5/3... I think if I didnt mess up the dates. Sooooo... that's about it. Updates from lil me. Hope to see everyone that I want to see before I leave. 

'tong yuen' .... finally =))

It's good to be home this time around. 

It's good to be able to celebrate Winter Solstice I actually forgot wat it is called in English til I refer somwhere aka Tong Yuen again.Don't ask me for the history of celebrating it k. Cos I sux in history. Mum doesnt know also. Haha. Well at least I'm not alone. Hohoho.

What we usually do at home is cook food for prayers. Mum did most of the cooking cos I didnt want to screw up or make cooking process go any slower. Cos I was still in bed. It's a Sunday ler!!I woke just in time to help mum prepare for prayers though. It was 9am already and mum woke up earlier to cook. Food was almost done. The only thing left is the Tong Yuen. Hehe...  

Tong Yuen preparation. Weeeee ~ 

Jakun in action. Hoho

1st ting that u should do is to prepare the 'tong sui'. Translation is... sweet water aka ai manisan... anyway, mum usually puts in pandan leaves for the extra flavor and aroma. 

This morning, I woke up smelling it already. Mmmmm.... I have something to confess actually. The aroma of the 'tong shui' is the reason I got up from bed. Hehehe... WHAT? 

Next, u roll the colored flour into 'tong yuen' aka colored balls. Rolling process is very very important u know. Your palms can't be wet or the flour will melt in your palms & it'll be sticky. You can't take too much of the flour cos the 'tong yuen' you roll will be too big and it might not be cooked and the flavor of the tong shui wont absorb.  

And there is a strategy way to make your 'tong yuen' round. WHAT?!! What's with the look? U think it's easy making a round looking 'tong yuen' meh? My 1st few attempts was all oval 'tong yuen's le. Or maybe I'm just not talented at all and I'm in denial. Sigh.

patting flour into shape. That's why it's BIG

ANYWAY, use both palms to make the flour into the shape 1st. Which is oval.

jeng jeng jeng 

The secret of round 'tong yuen'. Read crefully aite. Top secret. Only u know about this le. 

Nya nya nya ~!! 

Cut the crap right? Ok ok. So now, the positions. Your palm at the bottom. Any hand will do. Right left, as u like la. The 'tong yuen' in de middle. The other hand, using your fingers (make sure they are sticking with each other) on the top. A-N-D u roll, roll roll roll. Til u go weeee ~ 

Then you can throw the balls into the 'tong shui' pot. How long till they're ready? Errrr... I duno. Up to u lo.Cos I was too busy watching Monster Inc, CSI and PPG. When they're ready, serve them in a bowl lor. For extra flavor, u could add nuts while eating your 'tong yuen'. 

U must be wandering why am I overly excited about 'tong yuen' blablabla. Well, when u are not at home twice (2 years liao) for this, you will react like me. Retarded.  

Usually the Uni starts around this time, USM only in this case. 1 week before Christmas. So stupid. I don't know the reason behind this. I don't find it smart. So many holidays. Christmas la. Christmas Eve. New Year eve. New Year. What la! Who will go for classes? Lecturers also in holiday mood la. Sweat. Potong stim sungguh. Although I don't celebrate these holidays with big hoo-haa plans, but come on, give us a break la.   

I love 'tong yuen' !! 

Tian, you're de best! =)

Shopping spree is in the air. Weeeeee ~ But I end up buying nothing. Again. Though I fell for a dress, skirts, blouses, heels, people ... huhu... I'm not the mood of spending ler. 

Had a short trip to Pyramid. Too lazy to go any further. It's been a long time since I stepped in there and wandered around. Mum was not in de mood to go along with me so I dragged Tian instead. Shop after shop, we got tired of walking. 

Then we bumped into this stall that has chocolate fountain. 

Tada! 

I was obssessed about it, stare at it like a jakun and ignored Tian for few sec before we enter de next shop. Hehe. Tian noticed how sampat I was and decided to treat me. Ahhhhhh!! I luv u Tian tian. Hehe. The last time I tasted it was during my LI. Huhu. 

They have strawberry, marshmallow and banana to choose from. And some other fruits.

Nya nya! 

The taste of chocolate and strawberry. Finger licking good! I was licking the choc off the cup.... using the lidi stick... i want spoon... arrghhh!! I was tempted to use my finger but .. .. .. in public place le... And if I really did that, Tian will disown me and fly away. Haha!

I was that happy eating them. Hehe =) 

Tian stealing my share. Hoho. Well sharing is caring aite?  

Then we bumped into Tako Tao! stall... weee ~ I wanted 'Chicken Ham & Cheese' but Tian wanted Unagi... and so de manja2 part of me was released... hehe =P 

Tian you are so so nice to your sis ler. Hehe. I was really excited BUT that flavor was sold out! WHAT LA??!! My manja effort went down the drain... sigh  

So we got 2 pax. 1 octopus and 1 Unagi. I still like Sg Wang's better.  

It was fun roaming around, shop-hopping. I prefer if mum came along though. I'm sorry Tian. But but you're a good patient shopping partner. Hehe. Then we can get excited together. Sort of. Lol 

This weekend I'm supposed to get employed by dad. As a gardener. Hohoho ~!! But dad rejected my application after ... err... 20 minutes? Sobs. Inconvenient to bring me along wor. Huhu. I was so excited about it. 

Under the sun; 

with sunblock all over my arms and face. 

Planting grass 

Using the hoe aka cangkul 

Watering grass 

Pijak-pijak soils 

No snails to be worry of

Nice breezy wind

Drinking cold water after a day of hard work 

Think about it. The experience of planting grass. Arrrrr ~ Imagine yourself in it. Sounds relaxing right? *breathes in and out slowly*

Ok I'm weird. Forget it. Bleh ~

Gardening at home is different although I can do all those above. The feeling is different laa! Haiz. Dont mind me, I just want to rant for fun.  

Being a 'sampat'

'Sampat' in translation to Malay is jakun, which in English means ... errr...

For the past few days, I have been behaving at home. Getting the rest I need. Kinda drained out physically and mentally from the 10 days. Plus the travelling up and down Penang-Kl in 2 days. I hate long hours of travelling in the bus. Tiring. Who doesnt?  

TODAY I finally stepped out from my lil comfy pillow-bed-lappy. I am in rotting mode right now, so yeah. To MV and Gardens I went. With my sidekick, Reiki! It was a random outing actually. Reiki has her mind set cos she knows why she's there for. Unlike me. Bleh ~ Well, at least I am being a good friend slave by accompanying dear Reiki. Woot ~ 

It was a great day. I enjoyed myself ! although my sidekick could have reduce the bullying part. although I enjoy getting bullied. From stuffed stomach to aching jaw to lots of hitting involved. It's been a long long time since I met up with Reiki. Catching up again was great. Hehe. 

A big hint to the rest!!! 

I havent seen u guys for a longggggggggggggg time. 

Make time for lil me ler.

 Huhu. 

Lunch in Carl Juniors. Nya nya nya ~ 

Me burger hiding away....

The burger is humongously big. The meat is thick! Big! The vege is alot! I have to take really big bites. Dah lah mulut aku kecik. Lol. My fingers had BBQ sauce every bite. Messy messy lunch but syok. At the end of lunch, I was too stuffed to enjoy the fries. *burp* Satisfying though. I wanted Mushroom more though. Huhu. Some other time ler. 

Btw the burger looks like a hamster in diaper. Hehe. Kawaii ~ 

This burger of mine looked like it's =P  

So so, Carls' is in MV. When we step over to Gardens with our stuffed stomach, we stumbled upon this. 

Too speechless. We just couldn't believed what we saw. 15 for salad, main course, ice cream and drinks. WHAT DE?? 15 le!! My burger itself cost 15! Reiki's combo 20. Gack. I feel like smacking myself. Huhu. What a deal! Garrr!! *cries wif Reiki wif regret*

--------back to de story... *cough cough* apologies for de short drama. De blogger was too deprived thinking about it---------

Reiki got she wanted.  Happy happy face I tell you. Check her bloggy. Dont know how it happened but I ended up owing her 2 stuff. Eis und kleid. 

And me? Shop-hopping je. I went home empty-handed. Oh before u nag me, we stopped by at de Kids corner a while. I have to say this. I HATE KIDS!!! Not literally hate la, more to jealous actually. Kids nowadays are so lucky. So many choices ranging from toys, clothes, shoes, baby-chair and the list goes on. Last time mana la ade so many benda for babies and kids. Balik-balik the same stuff je. Ish! But having kids nowadays are really expensive lor. Huhu. 

Speaking of which, I got depressed. Just by shophopping. The sad sad reality. Why can't money dropped from the sky? Or why cant money grow on trees? Or Or.... 

I think most of us dreams / hopes/ wants a luxurious life where we can just buy anything we want. Well buying something we want makes us happy right? Hmmm... money don't just come to us unless we work hard for it blablabla. I know I know. Lalala ~ Ok, I should stop blabbling too much about money. *smack self* I am satisfied with life now although there are some people I want to kill. I am considered very lucky if I want to compare to those unfortunate people out there. 

Reiki, thanks for today. I enjoyed myself. Hope you did too. Hehe. Sorry if I overdrooled about *ahem* oh. I'm just being me. U miss me right? 

Alil evidence of me being 'sampat', below. Apparently my dark secret of my liking for camwhore has been revealed. Huhu. Habis lah image aku... nooo ~!! 

I SS. How I know u werent listening to me that we are taking photos worrrr.. huhu 

Trying to look at what Reiki's looking at. Truly 'sampat'. 

Reiki: Enuf la Ching omg!! Adui ~ 

Me: *ignores*

Life wouldn't be same without u Reiki. Hehe. U do love me right? Reiki?